Mooshi

Joanne Macko

My heart swells at the thought of your existence, to know that from a mere dream you came to me.
A dear and precious angel sent to earth for the purpose of love, nothing more and nothing less.
I wandered in the nothingness of the wilderness hoping for a glimpse of that face so full of grace.
Overflowing with anticipation you waited on the edge of the precipice to enter my womb and complete the cycle.
Darling child how much you will teach me and expect nothing in return but a mother's love and affection.
I knew you before the world was formed, A void to be filled with your perfect form.
You had chosen me as your vessel, a place to call your own, a safe and nurturing haven, a force to feed your soul.
You danced inside of me, excitedly you jumped while hearing sounds~seeking out their origins.
An explorer, intrigued with life itself and everything it holds, you set out to find answers and write a few of your own.
A philosopher's mind, a prophet's vision, a warrior's valor, a knowing soul with the pure heart of a child....these are the truths that separate you from the ordinary and make you extraordinary.
I consider myself blessed among women to have been chosen to carry and nurse you.
Fortunate am I, consider my heart~overflowing as I hold my dear treasure to my bosom with love.

Arimatsu-Sun

Joanne Macko

Orange and yellow reds and bright white
warm rays of sunshine filled with love and delight
You Sustain us merely through nutrients from our radiant mother star
Tending to us with maternal  regard.
cloaked within your devoted embrace, I feel your gentle hand guiding me away from life's quickened pace.
Like the rudder of a ship, you steer my way home.
From your fiery throne you shine on us all, with sensibility staying true to your character alone.
Showing yourself to those who would look, tutoring us in the art of beauty, truth and simplicity.
Keeping us draped under your canopy of purity, burning blue and white consumed by your radiance.
Here alone can we let go of race, creed and ego.

They say....

Self Portrait

It's funny to me, that all of you say, without exception the same words and phrases.
"Your skin is so very soft it's as smooth as silk, impossible to resist.
" Your voice soothes me and brings me peace-
your whispers caress my soul-
your songs bring healing-
your laughter lifts my spirits, Speak and I'll be freed."
"Your perfect, so petite in stature yet powerful and strong."
"Your eyes mesmerize and look deep into my soul."
These are but a few of the many accolades I hear.
But at the end of the day, I'm left alone.
All of you said the right words and convinced me to love.
Time and time again I empty myself , filling you with my essence making you whole.
Leaving me void.

We all fall

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My step does falter, I stumble and fall.

My perception wears a veil and eludes my wretched path.

It is clear I can not trust my sences to serve lucidity.

I fall down on my knees and call " Lord guide me from this maze of decaying walls".
He responds at once with Love and offers me His essence, the body and the blood.
My way has been clouded with the reality of The Fall.
Since Eden my flesh has warred, yearning to be consumed by evil and away from my true call.
A thousand times I stumble and a thousand times He calls.
Come to Me my child and rest in the busom of My love.
Receive the gift of grace as an offering for all that has been lost.
I'll not leave you nor forsake you, stand by you in times of doubt, hold you up when you are weak and fight for you at every turn.
This world is not my home, merely a place to collect lost souls.
Lord lift me when I've fallen and teach me to stand tall that I may shine my light eternal.

One Soul two hearts

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Darkness can not exist where there is light.

Look into my eyes and find the depth that is my soul.

Do not linger there too long for fear you will lose your way within the entrance to my galaxy.

Let my reality be light to reflect our combined truth to souls caught in despair.

Let us guide them out into the brightness of day where the full noon's sun bathes their darkness away.

Let not the dark of night tear at them, pulling them apart, separating them away from the truth they're destined to impart.
 Seek not~but sense your truth~sitting out for the world to view.

Touch the light with it's warm consuming love.
 No doubts or questions left just recognition.

I recognize you, my heart and soul jumped at the re-union of our spirits.

I saw you and knew you from the start.

I celebrate at the thought of like-beings existing~to share in the oneness of the universe, beyond all that's comprehensible, I welcome all who understand this.

All connected and vital,  uniquely equipped for the journey which guides us back to the source of love.

Israel

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A friendship is born when our hearts open the door to the souls yearning for more.
In a single gaze you see that the spirit lives where the eyes do meet.
Nurtured and tended to like a blossoming garden, so too, does a friendship flourish into an eternal promise.
As the Father made the Son along with creation for the sole purpose of intimate relations.
We too are made in the image of the "One" to live in union with our fellowman.
Extend a hand, climb out on a branch it may not be easy but nothing worth having is less than chance.

Be who you are

One of my kids favorite books

Take a step back in time and remember the place that precise moment when you discovered the person you wanted to be.
That "you" which makes you hold your head up high, shoulders back with a bounce in your step.
That "you" which can reach lofty heights of success without stubbing your toe or cowering back.
As a child you"re encouraged to reach for the stars and never let go of a dream no matter how tall.
Now that your grown you must settle down, be down to earth and have reasonable goals.
But what about your inner child? what do we do when she reaches out and desires to fly?
Don't stifle her spirit or limit her dreams, encourage yourself and never give up.
Surround yourself with bright stars, positive and profound, ones who recognize who you truly are.
Say "no" to the doubters who ever they are and don't let them bind you with words that tear down.
Take a good look around, you'll soon find that we all have qualities that we can't live without.
We are all needed each unique gift and talent to make up the whole of which we inhabit.

Free

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Epiphany a sudden light that illuminates the darkest regions of your soul.
It awakens truths about yourself and all around you as if you'd been trapped in another's world.
Look through the eyes of a stranger and see the reflection that you cast.
Can you see the lies you've been living and the ease in which it's wrapped.
Tear away the words that bind you that surround you in quaking fear.
No more will you be told when or where you may go.
Who you will speak to and to who's loyalties you'll hold dear.
Love is a free and sacred gift bestowed to us from the One.
A gift that should be received in the spirit that it is bestowed.
Freely given , freely accepted and always passed on.
For all to grow.

Bathed anew

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Crystal clear droplets descending unto the parched earth with eager anticipation of quenching it's thirst.
The heavenly canopy opens to a deluge awaiting permission to find it's way toward it's intended.
The foliage gazes upward awaiting to be bathed in it's cool, refreshing shower.
All creation celebrates as the heavens make their way throughout the earth, renewing it once again.
Bathed anew, the earth producing life, trees bearing fruit, new life springing up in place of the withered.
One solitary drop makes it's way unto my lips reminding me once more of our fragile state.
We depend on the earth and she on us to nurture this miraculous cycle of life.

Amber Green Hues

Sensations pass over me and through me, they cover me with a multitude of rich fragrances.
The warmth as it travels over me releasing me to a world more vibrant than the last.
How can this be? My senses are filled with the perfect riches of my hearts desire.
I need not shut my eyes to take in the amber green hues that fill my soul with ardour.
Simply to believe and to accept another waits for you will make this journey possible.
It is mere chance to some, fate to others, a passing dream to most, destiny for a few.
But as for me it's contained in the plan written out for me before the creation of this world.

Story

Turn the pages slowly digest each word taking in it's full meaning.
You don't want to reach the end of the story without savoring it's true glory.
I pray the next chapter of my story is one filled with light hearted laughter.
Within each chapter room to expand on the me I was created to be.
Warm, charasmatic, full of joy a servant of God's and not of man.
Man does have the propensity to enslave another and tear them down.
But God has the power to set us free in this life and into the other.
How many chapters have already been written for me by those I've allowed.
It's my book to be written by God and published by me.
In these new chapters I rely on my choices to change the theme of my story from martyrdom to recovery.
Write your own story rely on God, yourself and loving friends to help you edit.

Not "The One"

Tell me what is it that I lack.
I'm not the "one", not the fairest in the land.
Just another needy woman searching for her other half.
Alone, lost and broken that's the state in which I stand.
Creating chaos in the hearts of those I've chosen.
I hate this limbo I reside in, I hate that time is slipping through my hands.
A thousand deaths have I suffered and a thousand more stand at my door.
I sojourn in the land of the living observing happiness from afar.
Dreams mock me with the shadows of things that might have been.

Poison

                                                                              
 Poisoned by the very blood that feeds the river of my soul.

Thoughts and memories clot my veins not allowing the river to flow.

Life's blood animated and produced by a breath and one simple word.
Come to me, a command, 3 simple words.
To obey would be easy in the realm of my spirit.
Yet to disobey is the calling of my flesh.
2 beings sharing one body fighting for control.
Let the Word summon you answer it's faint call.
Cast off your flesh and walk in the spirit.

Alone

Heavy are the beats of my heart, causing me, and only ME to see

Brought here...alone... against my will

To witness man's inhumanity

Left behind, to play the part... that only one like me can play

Through my smile and graceful dance I elude my predator's fated gain

He looks... yet does not see... whatever he does it can't effect ME

Inside I die for a glimpse of peace

Pulling you close, to feel your pain

Engulfed in sorrow a result of your loss

Honoring your request

To remain apart

Dance

Fall into my hypnotic trance.
Step to the left, move to the right, lean forward , pull me back.
 breathe with me, take my hand, sway to the rhythm of the dance.
Curl your shoulders, arche your back.
Feel the music draw you closer, frenzied turn, return and balance.
Finish the movement with a dip and a glance.

Communion

Communion of Spirit and Faith United together as one Your thoughts my thoughts Hearts beating, no pounding as one Your breath my breath in harmony ardent Urgent is my touch seeking your form in the night Gentle is your caress feeding my hunger with incite Dancing in my Spirit now as your eternal light Leading me ever closer towards a greater sight In unison do we make this pledge to love, to trust, to weep and to laugh Your touch so pure and truth did witness to my soul your hearts desire to set me anew It were as if I'd known your intimate touch long before Now returning me to a harbor secure Familiar in scent, touch and taste

Descend

I watched a bird fall from the sky today His flight interrupted quite by surprise He flapped his wings wildly attempting to climb back after descending Poor soul plucked from the heavens Torn down to the earth away from his home If only I could, I certainly would, help you climb higher...take off and soar Your meant to fly free, instead you are wounded and there you'll remain Unless you believe in the power you breathe

Latin "I shall Please"

My love takes the form of a placebo, no stronger drug will take it's place
 Although not perfected but selected not to leave a harmful trace
This placebo that I've chosen isn't wasted with mindless or idle chase
Instead it fully does uncover my ailments scornfull & wretched face
 Unmasking the foe and strengthening the whole, that's the power that it's given
Keep in mind it's a placebo not an enhancing or corrective formula
Simply a mirror with the enchantment that allows me to see my value and not judgement or disgrace
The chemical solution masks the problem with side-effects in it's place
Yes it covers all my needs but leaves void my inner-being
No Strong drug will numb my spirit, No vague chemical will I allow
I've always had the answer I just couldn't see it because I had lost the key somehow
Once I unlocked my soul I found it had been burried and partialy sold
It's always been right here within my reach, my very own choices are what expand and teach
My very real heart pounds at the thought of the freedom I might reach

Farewell

Farewell to gernerosity, for it serves me not Adieu my sweet coquette, her effect is to violate my lot Inspired once to love, now to die would be as sweet Recoiled within my loneliness, to survive gregariously Scrutinized, judged and sentenced through the eyes of your jury Propelled to justify the tenor of my character Repulsed by my reflection, transformed back to my heinous identity To hide away in darkness from all who seek to enslave me Why do they prey, what is it they find in me Turn from me, look not upon my naivete' My goodness is the very thing that betrays me, easily I trust to find a new wound Do not pity what I've become, I chose my own path Remember me if it hurts you not, forget if the memory causes you want

Love or Obsession

Is there any difference between love and obsession?


It's a fine line between ecstasy and pain...each a vital sensation

Rapture leads to our inevitable torment... reccuring but never fatal inner destruction

Observe the beginning of the courting ritual... no different today than yesterday or tomorrow

As the dawn appears the creature seeks a compatible mate, attractive, virile, robust, able to dominate

Clearly the game is the thrill of the chase, unwinding the victim in a dizzying pace

Off balance and captured she surrenders into his gaze

Survival prevents him from monotony...tedium...instinctually we ache to procreate

Like beasts in the twilight hours we find it impossible to find clarity...shadows hide reality

Upright evolved capable and knowing...we seek to complete the circle of longing

Spirit or soul vessel for our hearts, beckoning...guiding us... to the edge of sanity

Discomfort and fear hinder our understanding...internally we sense our final descent.

By plan or mere chance lives are touched...ultimately altered...the stars in the heavens,

The grains of sand on the beaches too numerous to mention like the hearts that are broken

Yet we venture again and again to this place,

The place where it all happened, after all the pleasure far exceeds the tumultuous agony

For a fortunate few, truth and love are united in an eternal bond never to be severed only to be heightened

Night

The night wraps me in it's embrace, warm and soothing


Allowing me to escape this crazy race

He holds me close, there I feel safe

The colors are vivid, the scents sweet and crisp

Your touch yielding and as for loves first kiss...intriguing

There your eyes are filled with a spirit of innocence and adventure...

Not like listless pools of torment and distrust

There we stand blameless and proud, clean and unspoiled

Nurtured and loved with nothing expected in return...

Yet granted freely without resistance

Ahh...Finally, I bare my soul and remove this mask

No longer do I have to simulate

Here, I give myself permission to step out of the line of lemmings

I don't hide here nor do I cry

Stop!...Don't take me back...Please let me go

Damn!...Here I am, In THIS place again

Why? why must I be wrenched back,

back to the place where I die repeatedly, where I cease to exist

Pulled away from the warmth and security...exposed to my frailty

Re-birth

Draw in~~~inhale the sweet bouquet~~~filling my senses at the close of the day


Let's dismiss all worry along with active thought

Press my eyes together, finding what I once lost

Ascending weightless...towards a clearer reality

With an extraordinary pallete of colors one can scarcely imagine

Hues of every shade that live outside of the rainbow

Senses heightened and truths revealed

Releasing my fears and accepting my tears

Tears like the waves of the ocean...salty, warm, evoking emotions

Cleanse me now and make me whole

Tear my flesh expose my scourn

Renew my spirit...free to mourn...letting go free to move on

Your selfless gift, your love alone can ransom me back from the dead and forlorn

Awake and alive back from the pit

Free to take flight and glide or be still and sit

Respect

No locution can portray the flood of emotions which entangles me

As a walk through an overgrown wood
A film of haze wraps about me
Intoxicating and consuming
My limbs weak...lips dry...breast full...soul high
Inexperienced as a recipient of sincerity
I struggle to find my identity
You take my hand to reassure me, confidently you hold me
You so cautious...and I so impulsive
Together we create a circle of completion
Where one begins and the other ends is no longer an issue

Timepiece

Hands move to assist me

They prompt and encourage me With all of its digits we depend on its accuracy
Sometimes betraying me
By moving too quickly
Other times hesitating thus filling me with anxiety
In youth... a time of impatience
I hastened thee to move rapidly
Now I watch impatiently
Hoping for longevity
What part do I play?

Never Alone

The wood is thick with fog
The trail covered in moss
It's cold and damp in the wood today
I can't find my way out of this place
My memory scarcely recalls where the path lay
The dew of the ground and the mist in the air work together to evade my way
I don't dare turn this way or that for fear I'll sense their look on my back
My steps are not certain, the balance is missing, my struggle confusing
I beg of the wood " show me the way "
It parts it's branches revealing the sun
The light is so bright, so pure...it bathes over me securely and warm
The white of the light streams through
exposing the path and touching the dew
The sun's kiss on the glistening dew gives the impression of crystal webs
Which quickly reminds me of my own path
My life like the web consists of strands
intricately woven and uniquely designed
My path is not written in ink or on stone
I'm free to be "me" I'm never alone

Harmony

Night and day compete for my affection. The night seduces me with it's brilliant sky. The day caresses me with the rays of the sun. Each wins a place in my heart. No two could be as different, yet they live in perfect harmony within the same sky.

Upon my pillow

I softly lie back upon my pillow, gently closing my eyes, softening my brow.
As I lie here in the midst of my memories I feel my heart pounding in my ears.
My blood runs warm, my hands grow clammy at the thought of my lover.
I'm once again aware of a tender time, a well guarded treasure all my own.
Sweet, Dear memory... play for me again and again my love song.
The tantalizing melody which carries me off, without reservation I surrender to it's charms.
Lifting me, my spirit skimming the top of the world I realize how effortless the  ascencion has become.
Lyrics as pure as gold fill me with new breath, the breath of a Titan, a daughter of Gaia.
I'm invincible, conceived of pure ardor and aglow in the oneness.
A time and a place where I  linger , wrapped lovingly in your embrace.

Meditation

My essence my inner light travels the Heavens, the Earth and the Seas.
I am awed at the beauty, the magnitude is scarcely fathomable to me.
Constellations with the insight of the ages and the road map to be followed.
As I unfurl my wings to their full expanse, It opens my ribcage as well as my heart.
I encounter great lights traversing the night, each emitting Pure brightness
Each one individual, no two alike.
To the Earth I glide, whisking by towering trees that crescendo in time.
I'm captivated by the seductive colors of the folliage, the mesmerizing scents that they emit.
I was perched upon a mountain conversing with the stones, they eloquently told me about the forming of the Earth. Each had a different version but all were equally accurate according to their respective Vistas.
Diving leagues under the Sea I'm emerged in a world foreign, intriguing, it speaks of tranquility.
This voyage begins at the end of the day as I exit this world and weightlessly float to my favorite place.
I embark on this journey from another port also, I sit in Padmasana with my hands in Anjali Mudra...
Puraka inhale, Rechaka exhale, bring my mind to rest and arrive at Samadhi...release and I soar.

Nostalgia

Draw the shades to your waking life

Transcend the cosmos, leaving your body behind

Weightless you wander through time

Immersed in precious memories under the cloak of night

You take my hand in yours and lead me to your door

You trace my skin and say how soft it is

I kisss your eyes and caress your brow

I brush my lips across your open mouth

I can taste your sweet breath even now
I miss the sensation of your tender touch

Your gentle whispers cooing in my ear

Your hand wrapped around my waist
as you draw me closer than before
I feel your energy merge with mine for the last time.