Alone

Heavy are the beats of my heart, causing me, and only ME to see

Brought here...alone... against my will

To witness man's inhumanity

Left behind, to play the part... that only one like me can play

Through my smile and graceful dance I elude my predator's fated gain

He looks... yet does not see... whatever he does it can't effect ME

Inside I die for a glimpse of peace

Pulling you close, to feel your pain

Engulfed in sorrow a result of your loss

Honoring your request

To remain apart

Dance

Fall into my hypnotic trance.
Step to the left, move to the right, lean forward , pull me back.
 breathe with me, take my hand, sway to the rhythm of the dance.
Curl your shoulders, arche your back.
Feel the music draw you closer, frenzied turn, return and balance.
Finish the movement with a dip and a glance.

Communion

Communion of Spirit and Faith United together as one Your thoughts my thoughts Hearts beating, no pounding as one Your breath my breath in harmony ardent Urgent is my touch seeking your form in the night Gentle is your caress feeding my hunger with incite Dancing in my Spirit now as your eternal light Leading me ever closer towards a greater sight In unison do we make this pledge to love, to trust, to weep and to laugh Your touch so pure and truth did witness to my soul your hearts desire to set me anew It were as if I'd known your intimate touch long before Now returning me to a harbor secure Familiar in scent, touch and taste

Descend

I watched a bird fall from the sky today His flight interrupted quite by surprise He flapped his wings wildly attempting to climb back after descending Poor soul plucked from the heavens Torn down to the earth away from his home If only I could, I certainly would, help you climb higher...take off and soar Your meant to fly free, instead you are wounded and there you'll remain Unless you believe in the power you breathe

Latin "I shall Please"

My love takes the form of a placebo, no stronger drug will take it's place
 Although not perfected but selected not to leave a harmful trace
This placebo that I've chosen isn't wasted with mindless or idle chase
Instead it fully does uncover my ailments scornfull & wretched face
 Unmasking the foe and strengthening the whole, that's the power that it's given
Keep in mind it's a placebo not an enhancing or corrective formula
Simply a mirror with the enchantment that allows me to see my value and not judgement or disgrace
The chemical solution masks the problem with side-effects in it's place
Yes it covers all my needs but leaves void my inner-being
No Strong drug will numb my spirit, No vague chemical will I allow
I've always had the answer I just couldn't see it because I had lost the key somehow
Once I unlocked my soul I found it had been burried and partialy sold
It's always been right here within my reach, my very own choices are what expand and teach
My very real heart pounds at the thought of the freedom I might reach

Farewell

Farewell to gernerosity, for it serves me not Adieu my sweet coquette, her effect is to violate my lot Inspired once to love, now to die would be as sweet Recoiled within my loneliness, to survive gregariously Scrutinized, judged and sentenced through the eyes of your jury Propelled to justify the tenor of my character Repulsed by my reflection, transformed back to my heinous identity To hide away in darkness from all who seek to enslave me Why do they prey, what is it they find in me Turn from me, look not upon my naivete' My goodness is the very thing that betrays me, easily I trust to find a new wound Do not pity what I've become, I chose my own path Remember me if it hurts you not, forget if the memory causes you want

Love or Obsession

Is there any difference between love and obsession?


It's a fine line between ecstasy and pain...each a vital sensation

Rapture leads to our inevitable torment... reccuring but never fatal inner destruction

Observe the beginning of the courting ritual... no different today than yesterday or tomorrow

As the dawn appears the creature seeks a compatible mate, attractive, virile, robust, able to dominate

Clearly the game is the thrill of the chase, unwinding the victim in a dizzying pace

Off balance and captured she surrenders into his gaze

Survival prevents him from monotony...tedium...instinctually we ache to procreate

Like beasts in the twilight hours we find it impossible to find clarity...shadows hide reality

Upright evolved capable and knowing...we seek to complete the circle of longing

Spirit or soul vessel for our hearts, beckoning...guiding us... to the edge of sanity

Discomfort and fear hinder our understanding...internally we sense our final descent.

By plan or mere chance lives are touched...ultimately altered...the stars in the heavens,

The grains of sand on the beaches too numerous to mention like the hearts that are broken

Yet we venture again and again to this place,

The place where it all happened, after all the pleasure far exceeds the tumultuous agony

For a fortunate few, truth and love are united in an eternal bond never to be severed only to be heightened

Night

The night wraps me in it's embrace, warm and soothing


Allowing me to escape this crazy race

He holds me close, there I feel safe

The colors are vivid, the scents sweet and crisp

Your touch yielding and as for loves first kiss...intriguing

There your eyes are filled with a spirit of innocence and adventure...

Not like listless pools of torment and distrust

There we stand blameless and proud, clean and unspoiled

Nurtured and loved with nothing expected in return...

Yet granted freely without resistance

Ahh...Finally, I bare my soul and remove this mask

No longer do I have to simulate

Here, I give myself permission to step out of the line of lemmings

I don't hide here nor do I cry

Stop!...Don't take me back...Please let me go

Damn!...Here I am, In THIS place again

Why? why must I be wrenched back,

back to the place where I die repeatedly, where I cease to exist

Pulled away from the warmth and security...exposed to my frailty

Re-birth

Draw in~~~inhale the sweet bouquet~~~filling my senses at the close of the day


Let's dismiss all worry along with active thought

Press my eyes together, finding what I once lost

Ascending weightless...towards a clearer reality

With an extraordinary pallete of colors one can scarcely imagine

Hues of every shade that live outside of the rainbow

Senses heightened and truths revealed

Releasing my fears and accepting my tears

Tears like the waves of the ocean...salty, warm, evoking emotions

Cleanse me now and make me whole

Tear my flesh expose my scourn

Renew my spirit...free to mourn...letting go free to move on

Your selfless gift, your love alone can ransom me back from the dead and forlorn

Awake and alive back from the pit

Free to take flight and glide or be still and sit

Respect

No locution can portray the flood of emotions which entangles me

As a walk through an overgrown wood
A film of haze wraps about me
Intoxicating and consuming
My limbs weak...lips dry...breast full...soul high
Inexperienced as a recipient of sincerity
I struggle to find my identity
You take my hand to reassure me, confidently you hold me
You so cautious...and I so impulsive
Together we create a circle of completion
Where one begins and the other ends is no longer an issue

Timepiece

Hands move to assist me

They prompt and encourage me With all of its digits we depend on its accuracy
Sometimes betraying me
By moving too quickly
Other times hesitating thus filling me with anxiety
In youth... a time of impatience
I hastened thee to move rapidly
Now I watch impatiently
Hoping for longevity
What part do I play?

Never Alone

The wood is thick with fog
The trail covered in moss
It's cold and damp in the wood today
I can't find my way out of this place
My memory scarcely recalls where the path lay
The dew of the ground and the mist in the air work together to evade my way
I don't dare turn this way or that for fear I'll sense their look on my back
My steps are not certain, the balance is missing, my struggle confusing
I beg of the wood " show me the way "
It parts it's branches revealing the sun
The light is so bright, so pure...it bathes over me securely and warm
The white of the light streams through
exposing the path and touching the dew
The sun's kiss on the glistening dew gives the impression of crystal webs
Which quickly reminds me of my own path
My life like the web consists of strands
intricately woven and uniquely designed
My path is not written in ink or on stone
I'm free to be "me" I'm never alone

Harmony

Night and day compete for my affection. The night seduces me with it's brilliant sky. The day caresses me with the rays of the sun. Each wins a place in my heart. No two could be as different, yet they live in perfect harmony within the same sky.

Upon my pillow

I softly lie back upon my pillow, gently closing my eyes, softening my brow.
As I lie here in the midst of my memories I feel my heart pounding in my ears.
My blood runs warm, my hands grow clammy at the thought of my lover.
I'm once again aware of a tender time, a well guarded treasure all my own.
Sweet, Dear memory... play for me again and again my love song.
The tantalizing melody which carries me off, without reservation I surrender to it's charms.
Lifting me, my spirit skimming the top of the world I realize how effortless the  ascencion has become.
Lyrics as pure as gold fill me with new breath, the breath of a Titan, a daughter of Gaia.
I'm invincible, conceived of pure ardor and aglow in the oneness.
A time and a place where I  linger , wrapped lovingly in your embrace.